How are you feeling right now?
Maybe I´m wrong. My emotions are more often than not, stable. It´s a form of intelligence to cater to ones´ selfs´ emotional needs whenever necessary. However, Due to a stacking of situational events, I sorta kinda forced myself into an uncommon state of mind. That fight or flight type of decision.
An over stacking of a series of emotions, the defence mechanism triggered. It ought to be obvious this function is tactically stealthy in the nature of maintaining a hightened level of unpredictability.
I find myself “Back Home” after a whooping 21 odd years touring the globe, and sadly upon a hostile welcoming back, my experience of reality is in solitary.
Imagine going to work on a daily basis, incorporating yourself into a team, undertaking a numerous load of risky tasks in a team dynamic. Yet, keeping yourself drawn away from any productive bonding from mankind. The only moments that bring out this authentic psyche that is Morgan, is when facing a drafting surface, to relinquish and reflect through these monumental thoughts that here and there turn dark, unforgiving, vengful and even cursing. Evey other moment, It´s a enfuriated Henry active (2nd psyche me).
Here´s a vulnerability for you. My 2nd psyche functions at a lapse, a very short delay that´s meant to allow external forces fair space to manuevre. Deadly as it may be, this Henry of I is a trigger pull away from havoc and doomsday bringing. I personally don´t think a Hulk would want to trigger such chaos. Alas, Morgan guards in expectation of the worst, ready to retaliate in a just manner. This way, If anyone dies, I can layback and wait for the cops for questioning in total confidence of my just actions. Henry is Master Chief, Morgan is Cortana.
Maybe I´m stretching this truth. I think I´m just bothered by the fact that most woman I approach insists on exchanging money for intimacy. Sad, so sad.
Any how… Feelings come and go. A different track playing from my playlists ought to bring a new mood. Thank Lucifer for Music.
Meanwhile, I tread these lands with a burning rage careful to avoid spite, oh what disgrace would harm me for being spiteful. Rather cure my rage in my Solace.
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